Natal day

Time flies so fast! I turned a year older again! Yesterday, was my real natal day. A day that was full of anxiety and sorrows…

I was just lying in my bed, listening to music, watching tv and my thoughts have been wandering nowhere else. Here i am again, been suffering from an emotional turmoil. Suffering the consequent of my actions. Actions that i’ve done without thinking over and over again before deciding. Making promises to someone that leads to breaking them and in result, hurting other feelings. I really don’t intend to do it and i am sorry if i did wrong you.

I am not pleased with what i am right now. I am already left behind. Instead of going forward, as if i am moving backward. I became so lazy with my studies and to everything. I lose my heart and sometimes loses my head. 

I’ve been so bad.