Natal day

March 31, 2006

Time flies so fast! I turned a year older again! Yesterday, was my real natal day. A day that was full of anxiety and sorrows…

I was just lying in my bed, listening to music, watching tv and my thoughts have been wandering nowhere else. Here i am again, been suffering from an emotional turmoil. Suffering the consequent of my actions. Actions that i’ve done without thinking over and over again before deciding. Making promises to someone that leads to breaking them and in result, hurting other feelings. I really don’t intend to do it and i am sorry if i did wrong you.

I am not pleased with what i am right now. I am already left behind. Instead of going forward, as if i am moving backward. I became so lazy with my studies and to everything. I lose my heart and sometimes loses my head. 

I’ve been so bad.

Attitude to Life

March 24, 2006

To keep God always in the first place.

My duty always second.

The service of my fellow-man third.

            To be what God would have me be.

            To do what God would have me do.

                              - Archibishop Goodier, S.J

I got this one from an old pamphlet i found home. I was struck. Examining myself, i admit that i am no longer fervent with my prayers. I questioned God why I am bombarded with so many problems. At this moment, i am in a very crucial stage. I just hope i could pass through it. You see, as if “history repeats itself”. I am going nowhere else. I don’t know what to do as if i am dormant. I am in constant search….